Thursday, June 23, 2016
Trip To Hell
Hello my precious friends, have missed you all very much. My trip to hell started on Friday, June 17th. I became very sick, could not breathe, kept throwing up, could not eat. So, late that night, Eddie had to call an ambulance to come get me. When I got to the hospital, I was totally out of it, not even awake. I do not remember anything. Eddie had to sign a form to allow them to put an IV in my neck. A normal blood sugar is 70-120, my blood sugar was over 700!! I was near death. So, of course they admitted me to the hospital. I really do not remember a whole lot, because I was so sick. They told me they were going to give me morphine for my pain, I said ok. All I knew about morphine was that it would help with the pain, and help me sleep. No one told me about the side effects. But, unfortunately, I quickly learned about the side effects. I started my trip to hell, I began having horrible hallucinations. I began to see things that were not there. I saw , and felt bugs crawling all over me. I heard people talking about me constantly, saying very bad things about me. People were planning to kill me, and some people were going to have me put in jail. I thought a man had killed someone, and came to the hospital to hide out, and the hospital was put on lockdown. I thought he came into my room, and was going to kill me. When I saw him, I screamed so loud, the nurse came running into my room. One night, I thought Eddie was outside, that the police had arrested him, and I needed to help him. I got up, started getting dressed, and tried to escape. There was this one nurse, that I felt in my heart, was satan. She truly hated me, and wants me dead. They gave me morphine from Friday-Sunday. I came home Tuesday. They told me, I am now in morphine withdrawals. It can take days, or months for it to totally get out of my system. I feel like I am in hell. It is making me so sick. I am having trouble breathing, chest pain, vision problems, blood pressure problems. It is affecting my entire body. I continue to see things that are not there, very nervous, and constantly scared. I am still very scared of that nurse from the hospital, afraid she is after me, and is going to hurt me, or kill me. I am very much leaning on the everlasting arms of Jesus. Praying, praying, praying. Please pray with me, and for me. I love you all very much, take care.