Thursday, June 23, 2016

Trip To Hell

Hello my precious friends, have missed you all very much. My trip to hell started on Friday, June 17th. I became very sick, could not breathe, kept throwing up, could not eat. So, late that night, Eddie had to call an ambulance to come get me. When I got to the hospital, I was totally out of it, not even awake. I do not remember anything. Eddie had to sign a form to allow them to put an IV in my neck. A normal blood sugar is 70-120, my blood sugar was over 700!! I was near death. So, of course they admitted me to the hospital. I really do not remember a whole lot, because I was so sick. They told me they were going to give me morphine for my pain, I said ok. All I knew about morphine was that it would help with the pain, and help me sleep. No one told me about the side effects. But, unfortunately, I quickly learned about the side effects. I started my trip to hell, I began having horrible hallucinations.  I began to see things that were not there. I saw , and felt bugs crawling all over me. I heard people talking about me constantly, saying very bad things about me. People were planning to kill me, and some people were going to have me put in jail. I thought a man had killed someone, and came to the hospital to hide out, and the hospital was put on lockdown. I thought he came into my room, and was going to kill me. When I saw him, I screamed so loud, the nurse came running into my room. One night, I thought Eddie was outside, that the police had arrested him, and I needed to help him. I got up, started getting dressed, and tried to escape. There was this one nurse, that I felt in my heart, was satan. She truly hated me, and wants me dead. They gave me morphine from Friday-Sunday. I came home Tuesday. They told me, I am now in morphine withdrawals. It can take days, or months for it to totally get out of my system. I feel like I am in hell. It is making me so sick. I am having trouble breathing, chest pain, vision problems, blood pressure problems. It is affecting my entire body. I continue to see things that are not there, very nervous, and constantly scared. I am still very scared of that nurse from the hospital, afraid she is after me, and is going to hurt me, or kill me. I am very much leaning on the everlasting arms of Jesus. Praying, praying, praying. Please pray with me, and for me. I love you all very much, take care.

24 comments:

  1. Oh, I am praying for you. When you have this visions, just tell yourself that your body is fighting off the effects of drugs and they are not REAL! God will guide you and hold you closely.
    With your blood count so high, are your counts down now? My Dad is diabetic, and he had similar problems in January. My brother was on morphine years ago after he lost his leg in a tragic accident and I know it is some powerful stuff. Praying, praying, praying for you. Peace of the Lord be with you.

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  2. That is terrible!! Prayers are on the way.

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  3. Glad you're off the morphine. Now you know not to take that stuff anymore. You had a bad reaction to it.

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  4. In my prayers. Hope you soon feel better.

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  5. That's terrible.speedy recovery to you

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  6. I knew something was wrong. I am so sorry you are going through this. Tom and I have been praying and will continue to pray. May you feel the peace of Jesus and rest. Love you.

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  7. {{{Denise}}}I can tell you, I have had the same experience with Morphine...Keeping you in prayer.

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  8. I am so sorry you had such a bad experience. Knowing that you are now home is a relief. Hope you never have to go through that again. Glad you are better.

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  9. Oh dear, I will be praying that the days ahead will get better for you. Hugs and prayers coming your way.

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  10. Praying for you! What an awful experience. I'm glad you are no longer taking the morphine and I'm praying the effects wear off soon.

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  11. Oh my goodness, what a horrendous thing to have to go through. I pray that you get back to normal quickly.

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  12. Oh my what an ordeal for you to have gone through and still with some after effects, dear friend.
    Maybe you could do one of those foot ionic baths to clear out your system?
    I'm sorry for the pain you are going through.
    Maybe you could read and meditate on Psalm 23 and allow the Lord to comfort you during this time.
    My prayers will be with you.

    Love and hugs~~

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  13. What a terrible experience, poor darling, hope you're better now, sweet friend !
    I'm sending prayers and blessings on your days to come, take care, sweetie !

    Xx - Dany

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  14. How horrible to have such a bad reaction! You are in my prayers for a speedy recovery.

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  15. Oh my gosh, how awful. I'm so sorry for all you have gone through and all you are dealing with. I wish for better days for you.

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  16. My husband has had morphine injections for two surgeries years ago. It does make a person half crazy. Just keep saying something like "It's not real. I trust and believe in the LORD Jesus Christ." May He comfort you as we all pray for your healing. In Christ ~:)

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  17. Oh my goodness, I am so sorry for all that you are going through and experiencing. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. ((Hugs))

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  18. Oh, my dear friend, I am so sorry! That is horrible! Praying for God's peace and healing. I love you. (((Hugs))) and Blessings Cathy

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  19. I'm so so sorry You had a bad reaction to morphine, I know some people can't have morphine. Now at least You know to never take it again.I pray now and ask the Lord to cover You with a healing blanket of strength, clarity, comfort and love.Love Your way-Denise

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  20. Lord, I pray right now for this precious child of yours. I pray you bring healing to her body and health in abundance. I pray she feels your love and warmth.
    Amen

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  21. Oh, my dear friend I feel so sad to hear of all of this. It is horrible. Just hang in there and know that you are loved by many. Praying for you and sending lots of love and hugs and good things your way, Hugs!💕❤️😪

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  22. I was worried about you not updating your blog. You have gone through a very terrible experience and I am only glad you are able to put it down in words. I am sure you will be out of the sickness soon. Sending you prayers! You are going to be alright soon. Keep writing. We will keep praying for you!

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  23. Denise, I am so worried about you again. I noticed your Facebook page has been deleted. Please comment back to this comment so I know you are okay. I just read this post, and I am so sorry you have been through such a horrifying experience. I am fervently praying for you, my sweet friend! <3 <3 <3 I love you!

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  24. Denise my sweet friend you are loved and missed so much. I am praying for you along with all of these other ladies. We are holding you up lifting you up to Jesus. Please Jesus heal our sweet sister. In your precious name I pray, Amen

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